Presents
Tis the season of gift giving, and for the first time ever i've actually been able to buy my friends gifts. Most of the time i am the absolute worst giver of gifts.
I never have enough money to buy the presents.
I never go out and get them.
I never know what to get people.
But this year i have spent a decent amount of time into gifts, but it makes me understand how difficult buying gifts is. For only six friends i have already spent upwards of 60 dollars. Thats just for going to the local arts store and record store. I've been saving money from baby sitting for two months and have depleted in my savings in two hours. 
Being able to buy gifts is a difficult feat and i already feel bad for not being able to buy some of my friends presents. So it makes you think about people who are unable to buy presents at all and the fact that Santa brings rich kids the best presents. Because of capitalism many people can't necessarily get the most or best presents for their kids. America has such a consumerism culture that christmas is about buying the most gifts, at least for kids. And its sad.
I know this is kind of conflicting with my last post, but there are good and bad things about the holidays. Its just good to put everything in perspective.

Chrstmus
Christmas is a wonderful season, its one of my favorites in fact. I just love the smells of pine and cinnamon. The lights emblazoning houses. The sound of firewood crackling in fireplaces. The joy and anticipation of presents being opened. Bing Crosby and Reba Mcentire singing carols and songs of trees and Santa.
The only thing i don't like about christmas is the expectation of one having to be christian to join in this mirthful holiday. I've always thought of it as a holiday about love, family, happiness, and appreciating others. Not Jesus's birth. I've grown up an atheist, never thinking there was a god or that the Bible and Jesus should be harkend.  My parents grew up Catholic and Protestant, but are now atheists and our family has never been to church. And yet my family celebrates Christmas. Christmas is no longer about religion for some (although christmas mass and religion is definitaly still a part of it for many).
Christmas is a time of gift giving, and celebrating, and hot chocolate, and snow. Now i'm not saying the religion of Christmas should be abolished, i'm not really sure what i'm saying... Only that it can and should be celebrated by anyone who wishes to take part in the season. For that reason it should be called Chrsmus. 
On that note i leave you with a gif in light of the holidays. 

Technology
For a while i have tried to put up old post that my computer some how lost, but blogger wasn't working right on my computer. I tried to figure it out (I had to download a plug in or update adobe or something) but i ended up using my mother's computer.
This whole escapade has brought upon my thoughts on a subject that often keeps me up at night.  What would humans do if we lost technology? Not all technology, but computers and phones. I do realize that 30 years ago this was the case, but in a society that is so focussed on being instantly amused or distracted with texting and the internet what would we do? 
I remember that when i was a child i prided myself in the fact that i could entertain myself with out the internet, and yet when hurricane Sandy threatened power being available i was on tumblr rapidly in the fear that i couldn't go on once power was lost. I find myself wasting my days on tumblr as opposed to going on a walk or reading or even taking a nap. I used to hate the idea of going on the computer all the time and now it is all i spend my time doing. 
There is a new tv show on NBC called Revolution, check it out here, which has a great take on the subject. 
Now we are so reliant on the entertainment and distraction of the internet. We rely on it for advice, directions, laughs, boredom, and even jobs. If we were to loose that all of a sudden... Its just interesting to think about it. 

**Sorry, i seem to be having problems with the blog. Posts i made have not been showing up. I'm trying to find them and sort it out.

For today i leave you with a wonderful video to lift your spirits as i attempt to get previous posts.

Thoughts.
Something i dont undertand is train of thought. What leads it?
I know that in my case i have a very strange train of thought, and i can go from thinking about a tv show to thinking about flying squirrels. Train of thought is such an interesting thing, because once you start thinking about it, and thinking about what you're thinking  you get into a cycle of intense philosophical and complex thoughts that tend to get crazier and crazier. Sometimes you can descend into existential dilemmas. 
But that is on a rare occasion. Most of the time my brain just jumps from subject to subject thinking about all the various information in my brain. But why is it my brain keeps these subjects. A lot of the information is completely irrelevant to learning and every day life, and yet it stays stored up in my brain waiting to be a topic of intrest for when i'm trying to go to sleep. Its always when I go to sleep that my thoughts decide to rage rampant. They skitter about in my brain keeping me from sleeping, all of my regrets and worries decide to attack me as i drift off.
This post alone shows how hectic my thought process is, it jumps from topic to topic because when i talked about one thing it made me think of another and so on and so forth.
So i guess what i'm trying to say is that brains are weird, and i dont get why zombies like to eat them.

Words. Words. Words.
I am an actress. I'm in a youth theater group that does Shakespeare and therefore focuses very much on the spoken word. Because of this we focus greatly on annunciation and consents and speech. 
And yet despite all this, for some reason, i have lost the ability to talk. I will be talking to someone or trying to voice an idea and my tung refuses to function and i cannot speak. When i am reading lines and memorizing lines i do fine, but when it comes to conversing i am inept. 
This did not used to be the case. I used to do well in my annunciation, but my speech has slowly deteriorated so that i will merely make sounds and move my tung around. my theory is that my mouth has decided to go on strike because i clench my jaw from all my stress, i forget to brush my teeth when i'm up late doing homework, and so on and so forth. 
Well if my mouth is going on strike i guess i'll just have to talk less, do more yoga, and keep on keepin on. 

Hello there
Well hello there. These blogs, as you may or may not have noticed, are for school and were used for assignments given to us by our teachers. Now when i'm on my tumblr i'm more likely to talk about something that interests me, but a school blog... not so much. Since this was the case for many students our teachers decide to change the assignment. All we have to do is make at least one post a week, on any topic we like.
But the question is, what to do with it? Should i make this a blog dedicated to one thing? A blog about my life and its challenges. A blog about a fandom i like. It could be about anything.
I really like the fact that they have given us this freedom, but now i have the conundrum of not knowing what to write about.
I assume that i will end up writing about what ever comes to mind and whatever has been prominent that week. And, to the joy of the CAP teachers i assume, i'm most likely gonna end up using it far more often. Although i'm not going to follow any blogs, because as of yet i dont know how, but i will be posting more often.
So i'd like to say thank you to the CAP teachers for giving us this freedom. It will be fun.